10 January 2025 [My Time]

Day 6: Single and happy

This topic is soooooo me.

This is what I feel these past few days. I feel happy as I am. I feel happy when I can spend my time with my friend. I feel happy when I spend time with my sisters. I feel happy when I spend my time with myself at my home, in my room with my plan to watch what I love, to sing a song, to dance randomly, to talk to myself, to read my books, and to eat what I want. 

Single does not always means bad and does not always means good. I know that having a life partner is recommended as we grow old, but for now I feel free and I want to pursue my dream. To finish my pHD, to travel, to be a lecturer, to have my money of my own and makes my parents happy. I wanna feel to be loved by myself first and then I want to be a person who can love someone else for as long as I live. Someone whose come in the right time and right place, someone who can make each other be better person. I want to spend my time with someone who I can be sure that I can be happy with him all the rest of my life and you know what? I am so sure that I am gonna meet him someday, maybe not today, but when the time comes I know because my heart says so. I pray that Allah give guidance for that and I believe it that the plan is better and amazing in all sort of way. Right now I am happy as a single person who can do my best as a person. Someone like me who has a scar in her heart because of a relationship problem is still in healing session and working to be a better person. I don't want to be hurted so I want to be a person who can treat my future better and for all that I need to love myself first. Happy me will lead to happy relationship.